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Mother is in the bathroom getting ready for the trip to the hospital. The cat is giving her all kinds of advice. i think she slept well last night.

i am not sure if i did or not. i have remembories of the storm and traffic on the street, and tossing and thrashing about, but i feel rested. The headache is about gone and my chest doesn't seem to be so restricted. i'm probably going through a 48 hr. anxiety attack and just too dumb to know it.

Daughter has an appointment with a specialist on Friday, September 6. Four days after i am supposed to leave. i have to make a decision whether to change my departure date or not. i need to get back to 'my' life. It's very difficult to be on one's best behaviour all the time. It's very draining. i need to be back where i can be me. But, isn't there always a but? But, i would never forgive myself if i left and Daughter had some serious problem. But, she's an adult and has some one to take care of her. And he does a fine job, but he is also blind. Am i being prejudiced? Of course not. No child can be taken care of better than by mother. But if i stay won't she get the idea that i don't trust her/their abilities to take care of each other? But if i leave and there is some problem, i will have to pay for another ticket. But if i stay it will mean more time away from Master. Being a parent is har