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Feb. 11th, 2003 09:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleinThree days left of vacation. i try not to think about it, but i can't help it. Everyone thinks i'm sad because i have to go back to work, but that isn't it. i have no idea how many students we will have, i have no idea if any of the teachers have left, i have no idea how the course the Dean wants is going to go, if it's going to go.
The teacher for that course is becoming an increasingly large thorn in my side. He has nothing good to say about anything. He offers all sorts of arguments why something isn't going to work and asks questions about why we are doing what we do when x isn't happening or y isn't happening, but he never offers any solutions. He took on a task over the holiday and just last week let me know that since 'he' didn't take the other teachers' email addresses, 'he' isn't going to do the task. He is turning it over to me. Stupid son of a bitch. i will do it, simply because i want to make him suffer. He will teach this course the way i want it. He lost the right to say what is going to happen, if he relinquishes the task he said he would do. i'm not making any sense, but i don't care, i'm angry.
Daughter is doing fine on her own, while S.O. is in the hospital. i worry about her going out on her own since we don't know yet what causes the seizures, but there is nothing i can do about it. The town she lives in is small, i guess everyone knows who she is, and where she lives. i believe if anything happened, someone in the town would make sure she gets back home or to the doc.
i wonder if i should start a war pool? How many days after Feb. 15 will the bush declare war? i wonder if he will go against his word and commence if he doesn't get UN approval, and from what i'm reading today, that is not likely. On the up side, my financial advisor said yesterday that as soon as the war started in 90, the stock market went up. i could make some money from this war. Or at least break even. i'm in the hole so deep on one account i can't afford to sell. Oh well, they always say, if you can't afford to lose, don't play.
Speaking of play, it's been so long i can't remember what it feels like. Master mentioned this morning another piercing. This is the one i am not ready for, not anticipating at all. We both know it will happen, but i'm not looking forward to it. Not at all. Master has decided He will do it. i asked if He'd ever done this type before, He said no. i trust Him, i do, i'm just not ready. i think He realizes that after our talk.
More work done on the apartment today. The counter in the maid's room is now wired for 110 appliances. The mop rack is hung, Master found my antique brass plate. Tomorrow i think we are going to do a bit of taping of Kuwait. Some of the desert and the flowers, and the cities, the campus, stuff like that for home. Maybe some camels too, for LMSG, if she's nice to me.
The teacher for that course is becoming an increasingly large thorn in my side. He has nothing good to say about anything. He offers all sorts of arguments why something isn't going to work and asks questions about why we are doing what we do when x isn't happening or y isn't happening, but he never offers any solutions. He took on a task over the holiday and just last week let me know that since 'he' didn't take the other teachers' email addresses, 'he' isn't going to do the task. He is turning it over to me. Stupid son of a bitch. i will do it, simply because i want to make him suffer. He will teach this course the way i want it. He lost the right to say what is going to happen, if he relinquishes the task he said he would do. i'm not making any sense, but i don't care, i'm angry.
Daughter is doing fine on her own, while S.O. is in the hospital. i worry about her going out on her own since we don't know yet what causes the seizures, but there is nothing i can do about it. The town she lives in is small, i guess everyone knows who she is, and where she lives. i believe if anything happened, someone in the town would make sure she gets back home or to the doc.
i wonder if i should start a war pool? How many days after Feb. 15 will the bush declare war? i wonder if he will go against his word and commence if he doesn't get UN approval, and from what i'm reading today, that is not likely. On the up side, my financial advisor said yesterday that as soon as the war started in 90, the stock market went up. i could make some money from this war. Or at least break even. i'm in the hole so deep on one account i can't afford to sell. Oh well, they always say, if you can't afford to lose, don't play.
Speaking of play, it's been so long i can't remember what it feels like. Master mentioned this morning another piercing. This is the one i am not ready for, not anticipating at all. We both know it will happen, but i'm not looking forward to it. Not at all. Master has decided He will do it. i asked if He'd ever done this type before, He said no. i trust Him, i do, i'm just not ready. i think He realizes that after our talk.
More work done on the apartment today. The counter in the maid's room is now wired for 110 appliances. The mop rack is hung, Master found my antique brass plate. Tomorrow i think we are going to do a bit of taping of Kuwait. Some of the desert and the flowers, and the cities, the campus, stuff like that for home. Maybe some camels too, for LMSG, if she's nice to me.
