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Jan. 11th, 2003 09:43 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleini worked from home today. Got nearly everything done i wantd to do, and didn't have to talk on the phone once. i love a day like that.
Poor dog, he was just sure i was going to go out without him today. Everytime i walked passed the front door, there he was, laying in wait for me. Once he was trying to cleverly disguise himself as a part of Master's homeless coat. Didn't work, though, i caught on right away. i know Master's homeless coat doesn't have big ears.
Tomorrow is the meeting day from hell. The first one is at 8:30. The last one begins, supposedly, at 1. Don't know if i will be done before 3 or not.
Daughter's doc appointment went pretty quick. She handed the doc the seizure log, and made two more appointments. She has an eeg on Tuesday, and goes back to see him on the 21st of Feb. i wish i could be there with her. i know it is not a difficult test. Or painful. The difficulty and pain may come with the results. At least she was honest with him as to their serverity and rate of occurence.
i am always torn when i meditate on her. If she had had a different father, she would not have to had deal with all the sadness and pain. On the other hand, if she had had a different father, she would not be the person i love so much. i can tell people who tell me how strong i am and amazing she is, that strength and amazement have nothing to do with it. She had never been 14 and not blind. i had never been a mother without a blind daughter. You do what you have to do to get through. She was a pain in the butt as much of the time as she was my sick scared daughter. Being a parent is hard. i don't know why anyone wants to do it. While i can't imagine my life without my kids, i would never do it again.
i think i felt an earth tremor tonight. hmmm.
Poor dog, he was just sure i was going to go out without him today. Everytime i walked passed the front door, there he was, laying in wait for me. Once he was trying to cleverly disguise himself as a part of Master's homeless coat. Didn't work, though, i caught on right away. i know Master's homeless coat doesn't have big ears.
Tomorrow is the meeting day from hell. The first one is at 8:30. The last one begins, supposedly, at 1. Don't know if i will be done before 3 or not.
Daughter's doc appointment went pretty quick. She handed the doc the seizure log, and made two more appointments. She has an eeg on Tuesday, and goes back to see him on the 21st of Feb. i wish i could be there with her. i know it is not a difficult test. Or painful. The difficulty and pain may come with the results. At least she was honest with him as to their serverity and rate of occurence.
i am always torn when i meditate on her. If she had had a different father, she would not have to had deal with all the sadness and pain. On the other hand, if she had had a different father, she would not be the person i love so much. i can tell people who tell me how strong i am and amazing she is, that strength and amazement have nothing to do with it. She had never been 14 and not blind. i had never been a mother without a blind daughter. You do what you have to do to get through. She was a pain in the butt as much of the time as she was my sick scared daughter. Being a parent is hard. i don't know why anyone wants to do it. While i can't imagine my life without my kids, i would never do it again.
i think i felt an earth tremor tonight. hmmm.
