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Jul. 26th, 2002 07:05 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleinYonker's called yesterday. Someone found my bracelet and turned it in. The clasp hadn't opened as i had feared. The bracelet had broken. So right away i took it to Mother's favorite jeweler and he will have it repaired for me this afternoon. So i can wear it tonight and tomorrow. He has some emerald earrings, but they are pretty small. He has some bigger ones, but the stones aren't nearly as pretty. But i'm thinking.
Went to the farm yesterday with Mother too. She had forgotten a small glass lamp that was given to her by her mother. Ex was giving her seven kinds of sass over the phone, but when Mother mentioned taking it back to court if he didn't give it to her, and letting him pay court costs and lawyer fees, he decided it was time to give it to her. She didn't get out of the car. He had called his daughter over for protection i guess. Got the lamp and when Mother thanked him, he asked what for? He is still clueless as to why she thought she had a bad life with him.
i told her she should get out her cell phone and push the end button. This was the last time she had to speak to or see him ever again. Unless of course he doesn't get the settlement check to her in time. But i think he will.
Even with the good news about the bracelet, i had a headache all day. Once we got back from the jeweler's i spent the rest of the afternoon on the couch with sleep shades on. The room was just too bright.
Spoke with Daughter last night. S.O. has to go to Des Moines for more tests. That causes problems because they don't drive. i said if it was possible Mother and i would drive down to take them to Des Moines. The appointment likely won't be for a month, i hope it's before i leave to go back.
Tonight's the big night. Well the first of the two. i really don't want to go. Ellen and John are going to pick me up around 6 to go to Connie's for a bit of pre-prandial libation. There will be a few other people i haven't seen in about a hunnert years so that may make the big crowd easier to handle. Of course i could just get loaded and not give a rip, but i don't want to do that either. i would be an excellent hermit. i can do without large numbers of people. i have about decided that forcing myself to go in the hopes that the more i do it the easier it will become is a false notion. It doesn't get any easier. It just plain doesn't. i'm not tall, i'm not model thin, i'm not beautiful, and i don't have Master to show off. i can't help thinking of something Ellen said to me once about her sister. She wouldn't like me because i'm not underweight. The fact that i have more than 2% body fat indicates to her sister that i am lazy. Now i really could care less about what that woman thinks of me, but it makes me wonder how others see me. And it's a humid day and my hair will suck. Just how much more shallow can i become? i don't want to go
Went to the farm yesterday with Mother too. She had forgotten a small glass lamp that was given to her by her mother. Ex was giving her seven kinds of sass over the phone, but when Mother mentioned taking it back to court if he didn't give it to her, and letting him pay court costs and lawyer fees, he decided it was time to give it to her. She didn't get out of the car. He had called his daughter over for protection i guess. Got the lamp and when Mother thanked him, he asked what for? He is still clueless as to why she thought she had a bad life with him.
i told her she should get out her cell phone and push the end button. This was the last time she had to speak to or see him ever again. Unless of course he doesn't get the settlement check to her in time. But i think he will.
Even with the good news about the bracelet, i had a headache all day. Once we got back from the jeweler's i spent the rest of the afternoon on the couch with sleep shades on. The room was just too bright.
Spoke with Daughter last night. S.O. has to go to Des Moines for more tests. That causes problems because they don't drive. i said if it was possible Mother and i would drive down to take them to Des Moines. The appointment likely won't be for a month, i hope it's before i leave to go back.
Tonight's the big night. Well the first of the two. i really don't want to go. Ellen and John are going to pick me up around 6 to go to Connie's for a bit of pre-prandial libation. There will be a few other people i haven't seen in about a hunnert years so that may make the big crowd easier to handle. Of course i could just get loaded and not give a rip, but i don't want to do that either. i would be an excellent hermit. i can do without large numbers of people. i have about decided that forcing myself to go in the hopes that the more i do it the easier it will become is a false notion. It doesn't get any easier. It just plain doesn't. i'm not tall, i'm not model thin, i'm not beautiful, and i don't have Master to show off. i can't help thinking of something Ellen said to me once about her sister. She wouldn't like me because i'm not underweight. The fact that i have more than 2% body fat indicates to her sister that i am lazy. Now i really could care less about what that woman thinks of me, but it makes me wonder how others see me. And it's a humid day and my hair will suck. Just how much more shallow can i become? i don't want to go
