an accomplished day and ......
Jul. 3rd, 2002 08:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleini hit the ground running this morning and didn't stop till nearly 1 this afternoon. Now that may not sound like much but i started at 4:30. Have nearly the whole unit finished. It needs some cosmetic stuff, but the basics are there, and i felt good.
Then i talked to my mother. There are times when i truly hate that i am living away from my family. i miss so much. i'm sure they don't intend to leave me out of what is going on in their lives, but it happens. And now i'm nearly crushed by what has happened to my family in the recent past.
My brother has lost his job. At his level finding something new is often difficult. The company he was repairing has been sold and he is no longer needed. He is keeping a good attitude about the whole thing and he is expecting three offers to come through this week. i hope it happens and i hope at least one of them is something he really wants. There was a time when he changed jobs about as often as he changed underwear, and each move was a step up the corporate ladder. Now he's nearly at the top and out of a job. i hope he has good luck.
My uncle died this week. i haven't seen him or talked to him in several years. He was the husband of my father's youngest sister. After my father died we sort of lost touch with that side of the family. But Uncle Bud and Aunt Mary were the two i kept in touch with. Aunt Mary died three years ago, and i missed the funeral. Now Uncle Bud is gone, and again , i'm not going to be able to be a part of it. i have no one to grieve with me. And that is a sad thing.
My mother's ex is still being a shit. But this is not something that is new to me at least. i always thought he was. She is not to go up to the farm at all, ever. Not that she has any reason to do so, but to be told she can't is just plain stupid. He has a small antique lamp that mother forgot to take when she moved out. He says she has to get it or it's going to the dump, but she can't go there. Such a conundrum.
And sister says yes, she will go get it. She and her spouse will take care of it. But they are playing the control game. They will do it when they are damned good and ready and not one moment before. Which leaves Mother in a difficult place. Ah, yes, the wonder of dominance and control. i hope they are feeling good about what they are doing, but in all probablility they aren't even aware.
Son and wife are having custodial parent difficulties. The father all of a sudden decided to tell the child care place that the kids weren't going to be there during the summer. What the fuck was he thinking, he knows both Son and wife work. Why do people do things like this to intentionally cause harm? What is it that makes them do it? Even in my meanest moments i'm not certain i could do something to intentionally cause stress. There isn't anyone i hate enough to do it to.
And this is what i am going home to.
Then i talked to my mother. There are times when i truly hate that i am living away from my family. i miss so much. i'm sure they don't intend to leave me out of what is going on in their lives, but it happens. And now i'm nearly crushed by what has happened to my family in the recent past.
My brother has lost his job. At his level finding something new is often difficult. The company he was repairing has been sold and he is no longer needed. He is keeping a good attitude about the whole thing and he is expecting three offers to come through this week. i hope it happens and i hope at least one of them is something he really wants. There was a time when he changed jobs about as often as he changed underwear, and each move was a step up the corporate ladder. Now he's nearly at the top and out of a job. i hope he has good luck.
My uncle died this week. i haven't seen him or talked to him in several years. He was the husband of my father's youngest sister. After my father died we sort of lost touch with that side of the family. But Uncle Bud and Aunt Mary were the two i kept in touch with. Aunt Mary died three years ago, and i missed the funeral. Now Uncle Bud is gone, and again , i'm not going to be able to be a part of it. i have no one to grieve with me. And that is a sad thing.
My mother's ex is still being a shit. But this is not something that is new to me at least. i always thought he was. She is not to go up to the farm at all, ever. Not that she has any reason to do so, but to be told she can't is just plain stupid. He has a small antique lamp that mother forgot to take when she moved out. He says she has to get it or it's going to the dump, but she can't go there. Such a conundrum.
And sister says yes, she will go get it. She and her spouse will take care of it. But they are playing the control game. They will do it when they are damned good and ready and not one moment before. Which leaves Mother in a difficult place. Ah, yes, the wonder of dominance and control. i hope they are feeling good about what they are doing, but in all probablility they aren't even aware.
Son and wife are having custodial parent difficulties. The father all of a sudden decided to tell the child care place that the kids weren't going to be there during the summer. What the fuck was he thinking, he knows both Son and wife work. Why do people do things like this to intentionally cause harm? What is it that makes them do it? Even in my meanest moments i'm not certain i could do something to intentionally cause stress. There isn't anyone i hate enough to do it to.
And this is what i am going home to.
