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Aug. 15th, 2004 06:50 amTried to go swimming yesterday. Got to the pool, Eileen says I hope you brought my suit. I says I didn't, it's at your house, you took it home one day. She says I'll wait in the car while you go. I says, I really didn't want to swim anyway today. We went home. She went back to bed, i watched tv until the others woke up.
It was Mother's b'day yesterday. We went out for dinner. There were 10 of us. It was nice. Bad photos of me with all the family will not be posted anyplace.
Today we are taking Mother to the river for the cruise and lunch and overnight at the Harborview. Maybe karaoke in the evening at the bar. For some reason Mother loves that.
She just woke up and came barging into 'my' room. Apparently the family rules of privacy don't count if you are visiting. Wants to know what to take on the trip. We've been telling her and telling her, and now i've told her again.
i realized last night i haven't given her a kiss since i got home. i come from a touching family. For some reason i haven't touched her other than as a guide or helper when she walks.
i mentioned yesterday that sister went home and went back to bed. Was told that sister is not strong. Then nothing more. i'm going to take it that means her stamina has not been built back up while she has been off work due to the broken ankle. Where did i come from? What makes me so diametrically opposite of the other family members? Or am i so like them i can't see it? Why do i come back each year? Or better yet, why do i look forward to coming back each year when in my heart i know what kind of summer it will be? i am an emotional masochist, it's the only answer that makes sense.
It was Mother's b'day yesterday. We went out for dinner. There were 10 of us. It was nice. Bad photos of me with all the family will not be posted anyplace.
Today we are taking Mother to the river for the cruise and lunch and overnight at the Harborview. Maybe karaoke in the evening at the bar. For some reason Mother loves that.
She just woke up and came barging into 'my' room. Apparently the family rules of privacy don't count if you are visiting. Wants to know what to take on the trip. We've been telling her and telling her, and now i've told her again.
i realized last night i haven't given her a kiss since i got home. i come from a touching family. For some reason i haven't touched her other than as a guide or helper when she walks.
i mentioned yesterday that sister went home and went back to bed. Was told that sister is not strong. Then nothing more. i'm going to take it that means her stamina has not been built back up while she has been off work due to the broken ankle. Where did i come from? What makes me so diametrically opposite of the other family members? Or am i so like them i can't see it? Why do i come back each year? Or better yet, why do i look forward to coming back each year when in my heart i know what kind of summer it will be? i am an emotional masochist, it's the only answer that makes sense.
