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more on resolution 2004-3
Jan. 5th, 2004 09:09 pmDon't get me wrong, i think a place to vent is a fine thing, and i think venting is a needful thing.
What is of concern to me, after reading the archives of my journal, is that i am venting a lot.
i need to discover what is wrong in my life that is making me need to vent. Or, has it just become a bad habit i have to break? Sometimes we do things for no particular purpose, except that we have done it before, and this is where i am at right now.
i need to reassess my life. i need to see if i am venting because there is a real problem with it, or if i am venting because i have become in the habit of it. If it is only habit, i must break the cycle. And i can, it should be fairly easy to do. (i quit smoking cold turkey, i can quit venting.)
If there is something in my life that is causing this unhappiness, or frustration, then i must make a decision about it. How i go about ridding myself of the cause of the unhappiness or the cause of the frustration is the next step.
i am on the first step, trying to figure out why i need to vent. i'm inclined to believe it is merely habit. i am a creature of habit; i like familiar, i like constancy, i like tradition. i shall go sit on the patio tomorrow, watching the ocean, become calm, and gaze at my navel for a few hours to see what i can ascertain. Once i have discovered the cause of my ventiveness i will do everything in my power to change my ways. i don't particularly care for what i have been writing lately.
What is of concern to me, after reading the archives of my journal, is that i am venting a lot.
i need to discover what is wrong in my life that is making me need to vent. Or, has it just become a bad habit i have to break? Sometimes we do things for no particular purpose, except that we have done it before, and this is where i am at right now.
i need to reassess my life. i need to see if i am venting because there is a real problem with it, or if i am venting because i have become in the habit of it. If it is only habit, i must break the cycle. And i can, it should be fairly easy to do. (i quit smoking cold turkey, i can quit venting.)
If there is something in my life that is causing this unhappiness, or frustration, then i must make a decision about it. How i go about ridding myself of the cause of the unhappiness or the cause of the frustration is the next step.
i am on the first step, trying to figure out why i need to vent. i'm inclined to believe it is merely habit. i am a creature of habit; i like familiar, i like constancy, i like tradition. i shall go sit on the patio tomorrow, watching the ocean, become calm, and gaze at my navel for a few hours to see what i can ascertain. Once i have discovered the cause of my ventiveness i will do everything in my power to change my ways. i don't particularly care for what i have been writing lately.
