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May. 13th, 2004 08:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleinThings aren't settling down as quickly or as nicely as i want.
i am feeling ouchie and scared and fuzzy and i want my mommy and Master isn't doing enough to get me through this and i'm having nightmares and not remembering them and not remembering that Master woke me up and held me until i stopped crying, and there are now to navy boats parked in my front yard and Master says that's a good thing because if the navy is here, the terrorists won't be, and the pain in my butt has turned in her resignation and will be leaving for good in June and somehow i feel guilty about that, and i know i shouldn't, and i don't care if this is a long run-on sentence, at least i recognize that fact and can do it in a somewhat coherent fashion.
To help ease the stress Master and i went for our first swim of the season two nights ago. i love how swimming makes me feel. After the swim Master had to suffer my excellently giggly mood. We walked yesterday, again, but walking doesn't do it for me like swimming does. Walking is painful for me and i am always conscious of having to work beyond that. Swimming frees me from all that pain and allows me to go into a zen like place. Swimming is painful for Master. Not the actual swimming, but the water temperature causes Him pain in His knees, so walking is better for Him. He gets more benefit from it. i'm rambling.
Anyway, this morning i went for a 45 min. swim on my own. Today has been one of the better days in this past week. i'm firmly convinced it is because of my swim this morning. i must swim again tomorrow. Unfortunately there is a sand storm tonight. i may be swimming in a pool of mud.
i'm done.
i am feeling ouchie and scared and fuzzy and i want my mommy and Master isn't doing enough to get me through this and i'm having nightmares and not remembering them and not remembering that Master woke me up and held me until i stopped crying, and there are now to navy boats parked in my front yard and Master says that's a good thing because if the navy is here, the terrorists won't be, and the pain in my butt has turned in her resignation and will be leaving for good in June and somehow i feel guilty about that, and i know i shouldn't, and i don't care if this is a long run-on sentence, at least i recognize that fact and can do it in a somewhat coherent fashion.
To help ease the stress Master and i went for our first swim of the season two nights ago. i love how swimming makes me feel. After the swim Master had to suffer my excellently giggly mood. We walked yesterday, again, but walking doesn't do it for me like swimming does. Walking is painful for me and i am always conscious of having to work beyond that. Swimming frees me from all that pain and allows me to go into a zen like place. Swimming is painful for Master. Not the actual swimming, but the water temperature causes Him pain in His knees, so walking is better for Him. He gets more benefit from it. i'm rambling.
Anyway, this morning i went for a 45 min. swim on my own. Today has been one of the better days in this past week. i'm firmly convinced it is because of my swim this morning. i must swim again tomorrow. Unfortunately there is a sand storm tonight. i may be swimming in a pool of mud.
i'm done.
