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Feb. 27th, 2004 06:56 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleinAnother beautiful day. Why do i feel so grumpy? Am i afraid of too much good?
Found another tick on Max. This makes four i think. They are never engorged, but two now have been embedded. i think they came from the kennel he was in while we were in Germany. Won't be going to that place again. i brush and brush and brush, but every once in awhile i spy one. Or it could have hopped on board in the desert i guess. Still in all, not going back to that kennel, no, no, no.
There is a young dominant i have chatted with online for a couple of years now. He is just finishig university, so very very young. He is sure of himself what he is, but unsure how to go about finding a submissive woman. We yak about just about everything. Today was the first time we talked about me and my life. It happened very easily, apparently everything was in the right place, all planets aligned, feng shuei good, karma account up to date that kind of thing. He noticed dissatisfaction about the present situation. On the whole i'm pleased with my life, lately there has been a rough space and he picked up on it. i guess i'm not very good at hiding my feelings.
Many long convoys on the road today. i have mixed feelings about seeing them. i think about 'our' soldiers. They should be just about ready to go home now. i see the trucks and wonder if there is anyone i know on any of them. They get a kick out of seeing the dog. He knows to stick his head out the window when a convoy goes by. He is such a poser. i hope they are on their ways home.
Then i think about the new guys. Today we saw a group of seabees. OLD men, i mean my age old. Just coming into the country. Going to a place where people are still being shot at. That makes me sad and fearful. i wonder if someone i see on the road will not make it back. No relationship to the person at all, other than we passed on the Faheheel expressway one day on his way to/from Iraq.
Then i feel insecure, thinking about all the soldiers leaving this part of the world. It will happen. i lived here before there was such a noticeably strong U.S. military presence, and wasn't concerned. The world has changed. Now i feel uncertain about many things. Why it wouldn't even surprise me if there were a huge earthquake in Kuwait.
Master worked on the back room some today. There is evidence that it will be finished some day. Not taking any guesses yet as to which day. He putters and pooches and puts away what He wants, then tells me to go in to clean up the garbage in the middle of the floor. i do, then He goes back and does it again. And so do i.
Sarah got taken last night, i am just now finding out from Mother. She called a taxi to take her home and the driver didn't know where the street was. Took her all the way out by the airport, made her be in the car for an hour, and charged her $20 for what should have been a five minute trip. i have no idea what the minimum is, but it shouldn't have been anywhere near 20$. i'm pissed. The driver knew she was blind. Don't cabs have radios in them to call for assistence if they get lost? The town has less than 40,000 people for heaven's sake. Hell's bells she could have walked home if it weren't for the snow, taken a lot less time and a lot less money.
Stupid cab driver. Best not take my b/p now.
Found another tick on Max. This makes four i think. They are never engorged, but two now have been embedded. i think they came from the kennel he was in while we were in Germany. Won't be going to that place again. i brush and brush and brush, but every once in awhile i spy one. Or it could have hopped on board in the desert i guess. Still in all, not going back to that kennel, no, no, no.
There is a young dominant i have chatted with online for a couple of years now. He is just finishig university, so very very young. He is sure of himself what he is, but unsure how to go about finding a submissive woman. We yak about just about everything. Today was the first time we talked about me and my life. It happened very easily, apparently everything was in the right place, all planets aligned, feng shuei good, karma account up to date that kind of thing. He noticed dissatisfaction about the present situation. On the whole i'm pleased with my life, lately there has been a rough space and he picked up on it. i guess i'm not very good at hiding my feelings.
Many long convoys on the road today. i have mixed feelings about seeing them. i think about 'our' soldiers. They should be just about ready to go home now. i see the trucks and wonder if there is anyone i know on any of them. They get a kick out of seeing the dog. He knows to stick his head out the window when a convoy goes by. He is such a poser. i hope they are on their ways home.
Then i think about the new guys. Today we saw a group of seabees. OLD men, i mean my age old. Just coming into the country. Going to a place where people are still being shot at. That makes me sad and fearful. i wonder if someone i see on the road will not make it back. No relationship to the person at all, other than we passed on the Faheheel expressway one day on his way to/from Iraq.
Then i feel insecure, thinking about all the soldiers leaving this part of the world. It will happen. i lived here before there was such a noticeably strong U.S. military presence, and wasn't concerned. The world has changed. Now i feel uncertain about many things. Why it wouldn't even surprise me if there were a huge earthquake in Kuwait.
Master worked on the back room some today. There is evidence that it will be finished some day. Not taking any guesses yet as to which day. He putters and pooches and puts away what He wants, then tells me to go in to clean up the garbage in the middle of the floor. i do, then He goes back and does it again. And so do i.
Sarah got taken last night, i am just now finding out from Mother. She called a taxi to take her home and the driver didn't know where the street was. Took her all the way out by the airport, made her be in the car for an hour, and charged her $20 for what should have been a five minute trip. i have no idea what the minimum is, but it shouldn't have been anywhere near 20$. i'm pissed. The driver knew she was blind. Don't cabs have radios in them to call for assistence if they get lost? The town has less than 40,000 people for heaven's sake. Hell's bells she could have walked home if it weren't for the snow, taken a lot less time and a lot less money.
Stupid cab driver. Best not take my b/p now.
