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Dec. 12th, 2003 09:25 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleinToday we got the tree up and nearly completely decorated. We will finish filling in the holes that are missing ornaments tomorrow. It looks beautiful, i think.
Max, the vunterhoount, was not quite sure what to think of that strange green thing in the front room. Then i got to thinking, he has never seen a 'real' tree before. The stuff he is familiar with is scrub, some may get as tall as Master, but i am not sure i have ever seen a tree here over 10' tall. Max decided discretion was the better part of living to see tomorrow, so he wandered back into the computer room and took a snooze on his couch. The next time he came into the front room, he actually did a double take. Not only was there a strange, tall, green thing there, but now it was blinking. i've seen animals do that in cartoons, but never a real live animal do it. He got into sniffer mode, and went all around the darned thing. Now i wonder if i can put his prezzies under the tree of if he will have to wait for Santa Dog to fill his stocking.
i have a few things to finish up for Master's side of the tree. Maybe i can wrap what i have before i go to work tomorrow and leave them for Him to discover when He gets home from work.
My hands really suffered putting up the tree. That stuff really dries out the skin. i feel like i am typing with sandpaper. Master is just a big kid when it comes to this stuff. He was whistling Christmas songs, and doing little elfish dances around the tree, while i watched and thought of all the bother it is going to be in four weeks taking it down. Maybe i can just put some colored eggs on it and call it the easter tree.
His happiness led me to thinking while i was in the tub. i thought of two things, 1) how much i love my bathtub. It's a big one by American standards. When i lay against the back to read, my feet don't touch the front. And i have space on either side. My mother's tub and my sister's tub and even the tub in my brother's house isn't as big as this. The second thing i thought was a wonder about Master.
i sometimes have been depressed about my life with Him, and have wondered if it was worth it. We have lots to talk about, and i love that, but we seldom agree on anything. Sometimes i am so frustrated by Him that i wonder if i made the right decision. i think this frustration is a part my inabiilty to surrender to Him completely. But this is a different ramble. While i was in the tub, i wondered if He ever gets depressed and sad.
He has been having some difficulties with property in the states. Today, even a week after the thing was supposedly going to be settled, He still doesn't know if it is His or not. i know He is frustrated. It is really difficult to conduct business half a world away from the other entity involved in the business. i know He is upset because He is not able to be there to take care of things in person. But i don't know if He is sad at the prospect of possibly loosing it. So i asked. And that question led to several others along the same vein.
Then i asked if He ever regretted the fact that we are together. i asked Him if He ever thought i was more bother than i was worth. And i'll be damned if He didn't answer. At first he tried to equivocate, but i asked Him what good was our relationship if He felt He couldn't answer me honestly. He thought about it, and came into the bathroom and answered me. And now i know.
Max, the vunterhoount, was not quite sure what to think of that strange green thing in the front room. Then i got to thinking, he has never seen a 'real' tree before. The stuff he is familiar with is scrub, some may get as tall as Master, but i am not sure i have ever seen a tree here over 10' tall. Max decided discretion was the better part of living to see tomorrow, so he wandered back into the computer room and took a snooze on his couch. The next time he came into the front room, he actually did a double take. Not only was there a strange, tall, green thing there, but now it was blinking. i've seen animals do that in cartoons, but never a real live animal do it. He got into sniffer mode, and went all around the darned thing. Now i wonder if i can put his prezzies under the tree of if he will have to wait for Santa Dog to fill his stocking.
i have a few things to finish up for Master's side of the tree. Maybe i can wrap what i have before i go to work tomorrow and leave them for Him to discover when He gets home from work.
My hands really suffered putting up the tree. That stuff really dries out the skin. i feel like i am typing with sandpaper. Master is just a big kid when it comes to this stuff. He was whistling Christmas songs, and doing little elfish dances around the tree, while i watched and thought of all the bother it is going to be in four weeks taking it down. Maybe i can just put some colored eggs on it and call it the easter tree.
His happiness led me to thinking while i was in the tub. i thought of two things, 1) how much i love my bathtub. It's a big one by American standards. When i lay against the back to read, my feet don't touch the front. And i have space on either side. My mother's tub and my sister's tub and even the tub in my brother's house isn't as big as this. The second thing i thought was a wonder about Master.
i sometimes have been depressed about my life with Him, and have wondered if it was worth it. We have lots to talk about, and i love that, but we seldom agree on anything. Sometimes i am so frustrated by Him that i wonder if i made the right decision. i think this frustration is a part my inabiilty to surrender to Him completely. But this is a different ramble. While i was in the tub, i wondered if He ever gets depressed and sad.
He has been having some difficulties with property in the states. Today, even a week after the thing was supposedly going to be settled, He still doesn't know if it is His or not. i know He is frustrated. It is really difficult to conduct business half a world away from the other entity involved in the business. i know He is upset because He is not able to be there to take care of things in person. But i don't know if He is sad at the prospect of possibly loosing it. So i asked. And that question led to several others along the same vein.
Then i asked if He ever regretted the fact that we are together. i asked Him if He ever thought i was more bother than i was worth. And i'll be damned if He didn't answer. At first he tried to equivocate, but i asked Him what good was our relationship if He felt He couldn't answer me honestly. He thought about it, and came into the bathroom and answered me. And now i know.
