It's just me an' the dog
May. 16th, 2003 11:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleinFor all the hissy fitting i was doing a few days ago, now that He is at the airport and getting ready to get on the plane, i feel very calm and at peace. i know He needs to go home and be with His kids. He has two family reunions to go to while there, both, unfortunately on the same weekend. He will take His son with Him to help drive. Son is a long haul trucker. A professional driver so i feel safe about that.
i am looking forward to being alone again. Just me and the dogs. i love being with Master but i do think these yearly separations help to keep the fire, the light, the joy, the spark, whatever in our relationship. i hate when He leaves, but once He is gone, i'm fine. And i love when He comes back. Well, it may take a little bit to get over the idea of having to share again, having Him miss the laundry hamper with His clothes, having Him take out the garbage but neglect to put a new bag in the basket, little things like that, but having Him physically in my life again more than makes up for the irritations.
And while He is gone, or i am gone, we have an LDR. i finally figured out what that meant the other day. Doesn't take a rocket scientist to hit me on the head.
Poor Max, he knows something is different. Master has never been gone this late at night alone. Usually by this time we are all tucked under the covers and snoozin'. i'm awake, Master is gone, what is going on here? Wait until tomorrow Maxie boy. Master won't be here in the morning either. And it will be just me and thee on the desert runs for the next 28 or so days. But we can do it. i know we can. (Now if i can just convince Max, everything will work out fine.)
Daughter is going down tomorrow with my best friend to get the last of her belongings. He will be leaving next weekend for Colorado, where is is from. i asked her how she was doing. They both know it is for the best. She is being so adult about this. She is an adult, i don't mean that. She is being so rational and sane, and saying they both know it is for the best. i don't want her to do that. i want her to be able to show her emotions and not be afraid of what Grandmother or Auntie Nurse might say. She and he have devoted many years to each other and to have it ripped apart just like that, even though the just like that was a long and sad period, it just isn't fair. She shouldn't have to be rational and sane about it.
Mother is going to CA next week to visit my brother and family. She still doesn't know if Daughter should stay alone with the cat for a week. Mother wants Daughter and cat to go stay with Auntie Nurse. My good god. Auntie Nurse and spouse live within spitting distance of Mother. One can see the other's back yard from the patio. Mother lives closer to Auntie Nurse than i live to the ocean. Well, ok, maybe not that close. The whole point of it is, my daughter is an independent woman who can take care of herself just fine. She just happens to have a handicap.
She went to the new specialist last Wednesday. She is on new meds. She'd been on the old meds for half her life and the new doc thinks they are just no longer working. She has not noticed any episodes since beginning the new medication. Neither has anyone else. Give it a rest Mother. She is doing fine, She can do fine. Let the woman grow up. You have another granddaughter now. She is a baby. She is only 6. Go out to CA and have a great time babying her.
Parents! Sheesh! When do they stop driving their kids crazy?
i think i just heard Master's plane fly over on His way back to Texas.
i am looking forward to being alone again. Just me and the dogs. i love being with Master but i do think these yearly separations help to keep the fire, the light, the joy, the spark, whatever in our relationship. i hate when He leaves, but once He is gone, i'm fine. And i love when He comes back. Well, it may take a little bit to get over the idea of having to share again, having Him miss the laundry hamper with His clothes, having Him take out the garbage but neglect to put a new bag in the basket, little things like that, but having Him physically in my life again more than makes up for the irritations.
And while He is gone, or i am gone, we have an LDR. i finally figured out what that meant the other day. Doesn't take a rocket scientist to hit me on the head.
Poor Max, he knows something is different. Master has never been gone this late at night alone. Usually by this time we are all tucked under the covers and snoozin'. i'm awake, Master is gone, what is going on here? Wait until tomorrow Maxie boy. Master won't be here in the morning either. And it will be just me and thee on the desert runs for the next 28 or so days. But we can do it. i know we can. (Now if i can just convince Max, everything will work out fine.)
Daughter is going down tomorrow with my best friend to get the last of her belongings. He will be leaving next weekend for Colorado, where is is from. i asked her how she was doing. They both know it is for the best. She is being so adult about this. She is an adult, i don't mean that. She is being so rational and sane, and saying they both know it is for the best. i don't want her to do that. i want her to be able to show her emotions and not be afraid of what Grandmother or Auntie Nurse might say. She and he have devoted many years to each other and to have it ripped apart just like that, even though the just like that was a long and sad period, it just isn't fair. She shouldn't have to be rational and sane about it.
Mother is going to CA next week to visit my brother and family. She still doesn't know if Daughter should stay alone with the cat for a week. Mother wants Daughter and cat to go stay with Auntie Nurse. My good god. Auntie Nurse and spouse live within spitting distance of Mother. One can see the other's back yard from the patio. Mother lives closer to Auntie Nurse than i live to the ocean. Well, ok, maybe not that close. The whole point of it is, my daughter is an independent woman who can take care of herself just fine. She just happens to have a handicap.
She went to the new specialist last Wednesday. She is on new meds. She'd been on the old meds for half her life and the new doc thinks they are just no longer working. She has not noticed any episodes since beginning the new medication. Neither has anyone else. Give it a rest Mother. She is doing fine, She can do fine. Let the woman grow up. You have another granddaughter now. She is a baby. She is only 6. Go out to CA and have a great time babying her.
Parents! Sheesh! When do they stop driving their kids crazy?
i think i just heard Master's plane fly over on His way back to Texas.
