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jdmkleinThis was a throw away weekend. i accomplished nothing of any social or moral redeeming value. i vegged. i did a very good job of it, probably expert quality vegging as a matter of fact. That notwithstanding, it was still a throw away weekend. i didn't even manage to get the garbage out to the can. Outside the back door was as far as i could manage.
There was no good reason for doing nothing. i'm not sick, Mother is doing fine enough for me to leave her, the weather was good all day. i just didn't do anything. Perhaps i'm preparing for next semester when i will be too busy to take a weekend of this kind. It's getting closer to the time for me to be back in Kuwait and already i'm feeling the stress. There is so much to do before the semester begins. Fortunately i've got all my government paper work done, so there won't be any hurry up and wait time wasted.
i spoke with Master and He promised me the door will be locked, the phone off the hook and the computers shut down for the first two days i am home. i will try to get an appointment for sheera on Wednesday, but other than that, it will be just the two of us. We may go out to do things other than the sheera appointment, but we are planning nothing. i am happy about that. i don't expect a lot of play, although i do know there will be some, but i do expect a lot of touching and feeling and snuggle time. i was raised in a touchy feely family and i raised my children to enjoy a hug and a snuggle. My son still busses me on the cheek when we meet and when we say goodbye. Even if it's only for a day. So does my daughter. And their partners. And my Mother. It's just that since Master and i have been together i have become much more acustomed to that consistant touching. Sometimes i want to reach out to my mother and just touch her hand, tell her i love her, give her a kiss and hug. i do it often, but not as often as i want. i don't want to scare her i guess. Now that's stupid i know.
My emotions have really been in a turmoil this summer. It will be good to be back where i feel on safer ground
There was no good reason for doing nothing. i'm not sick, Mother is doing fine enough for me to leave her, the weather was good all day. i just didn't do anything. Perhaps i'm preparing for next semester when i will be too busy to take a weekend of this kind. It's getting closer to the time for me to be back in Kuwait and already i'm feeling the stress. There is so much to do before the semester begins. Fortunately i've got all my government paper work done, so there won't be any hurry up and wait time wasted.
i spoke with Master and He promised me the door will be locked, the phone off the hook and the computers shut down for the first two days i am home. i will try to get an appointment for sheera on Wednesday, but other than that, it will be just the two of us. We may go out to do things other than the sheera appointment, but we are planning nothing. i am happy about that. i don't expect a lot of play, although i do know there will be some, but i do expect a lot of touching and feeling and snuggle time. i was raised in a touchy feely family and i raised my children to enjoy a hug and a snuggle. My son still busses me on the cheek when we meet and when we say goodbye. Even if it's only for a day. So does my daughter. And their partners. And my Mother. It's just that since Master and i have been together i have become much more acustomed to that consistant touching. Sometimes i want to reach out to my mother and just touch her hand, tell her i love her, give her a kiss and hug. i do it often, but not as often as i want. i don't want to scare her i guess. Now that's stupid i know.
My emotions have really been in a turmoil this summer. It will be good to be back where i feel on safer ground
