i am stymied
Jun. 12th, 2004 07:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleinSummer school started today. i got to the office early to get my head into the teacher mode. i checked my box and found a letter from the pain in my side. And i have no idea what to do with it. She doesn't really apologize for anything she did, she blames me for the bad things that happened. Two pages type written. At the end she says she had to get this off her chest.
She says in a few weeks she won't be thinking about me that i am selfish and only in it for the money and winning, especially winning over her. And that when she is back in the states, she hopes she can learn to deal with people like me, people who say they are her friend and then are only happy when putting her down.
And then handwritten on the bottom she says she still has love for me in her heart. And will be taking that away with her as well as the bad and the anger.
And just how the fuck am i supposed to deal with that? Does it require an answer? Master said i should respond, but not a point by point thing that would look defensive or argumentative. She called me passive/aggressive. i asked Master, i have been called many things in my life, but never passive/aggressive.
i wrote a short note to send to her. Said i didn't know how to respond to that letter, that i was sorry she felt the way she did, and that i hoped she would find peace in Kansas.
We both decided that was not one to send. i am stymied. i don't know what to do. She will be in the office tomorrow. i'm not sure yet if i want to assuage her conscience by talking to her and telling her goodbye or not. Or if i just want to ignore her. i do know for sure i don't want to get into a 'situation' with her ever again. And i really don't care what she says or how she feels about me. If she talks to others about me, they have the choice to believer her or not. And i don't give a rat's ass.
The saga will continue tomorrow. Film at 11.
She says in a few weeks she won't be thinking about me that i am selfish and only in it for the money and winning, especially winning over her. And that when she is back in the states, she hopes she can learn to deal with people like me, people who say they are her friend and then are only happy when putting her down.
And then handwritten on the bottom she says she still has love for me in her heart. And will be taking that away with her as well as the bad and the anger.
And just how the fuck am i supposed to deal with that? Does it require an answer? Master said i should respond, but not a point by point thing that would look defensive or argumentative. She called me passive/aggressive. i asked Master, i have been called many things in my life, but never passive/aggressive.
i wrote a short note to send to her. Said i didn't know how to respond to that letter, that i was sorry she felt the way she did, and that i hoped she would find peace in Kansas.
We both decided that was not one to send. i am stymied. i don't know what to do. She will be in the office tomorrow. i'm not sure yet if i want to assuage her conscience by talking to her and telling her goodbye or not. Or if i just want to ignore her. i do know for sure i don't want to get into a 'situation' with her ever again. And i really don't care what she says or how she feels about me. If she talks to others about me, they have the choice to believer her or not. And i don't give a rat's ass.
The saga will continue tomorrow. Film at 11.
