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Feb. 7th, 2006 09:45 amMost all of them have been without Master. i'm beginning to feel abandoned. It seems He's never around when i really need Him. i know in my head that isn't true, but my heart is sure having a hard time finding Him.
The internet service provider, (Is that what ISP means?) had a fire on January 28 and service was down to over half the country for several days. Since we live so far from the city we were some of the last to get back online. i don't know exactly when that happened, i was being patient and foolishly expecting that when our area was operational again, i would know it. i have lived here long enough to know better, but yet that is what i believed.
Master was in on the 29th and stayed until the 31st. He let it slip that the reason He is now coming across with military convoys is because He was shot at the the week before. The southern part of the country is still relatively safe from terrorist activity, but there is now the threat of bandits. They don't want the person, particularly, they want the vehicle and/or anything of value they can find inside. The reason Master didn't make it in on the weekend, is that He missed the last convoy on Thursday. He has his security people who convoy Him from whichever warehouse He's in to the American camp. From there He convoys with the military through the DMZ and to the northern border of Kuwait. It is a longer route, but He assures me much safer. i want Him out of the country. We spent the day together on the 30th but it was all about work. Doing this, getting estimates for that, buying the other, answering phone calls that are over and above His job description, but it seems He is the only one who has a handle on the subject. He has not had a REAL day off in over 6 months.
Needless to say, things around the apartment are going to hell in a handbasket. And He is set to leave on Feb 17 for 2 weeks back in the States. i have a list of things that want taking care of; i guess i better prioritize because i know He isn't going to have time to get everything done. Maybe i'll just pack up my stuff and move to a smaller place while He is gone. Leaving no forwarding address. Am i bitter?
Therapy is winding down. Tomorrow is the last of the scheduled 30 days. Yesterday was not good. i had severe pain in the left knee. Enough so that my knee gave out several times as i was walking. i am depressed about this beyond measure. And of course Who isn't around for me to vent to? The only reason i have internet now is because i couldn't sleep last night so at 2 in the morning Mohammed, from Fastelco, and i were on the phone trying to get my PC online. At least he was polite, and funny. But it was 4:30 in the morning before i went back to bed.
i see more of Orlin than i do of Master. And by the time He gets back from Angelo He will have spent more time with His family there than with me here. i don't begrudge Him time with His family. He has a 3 mo/old grandson He has to get to know. And a granddaughter to spoil. But i am jealous a bit. Phooey!
It is a grey day today, and writing about all this nonsense is not helping my mood.
Feb. 2 Water truck incident, ambulances, and police
Feb. 3 Spending a social day with the Therapist
Feb. 4 Newly painted vehicles and rain storms, why some Indian men smell Islamic New Year
Feb. 5 Tylenol PM, ativan, and codeine
i think i have figured out the knee pain. We will not be walking on the beach today.
The internet service provider, (Is that what ISP means?) had a fire on January 28 and service was down to over half the country for several days. Since we live so far from the city we were some of the last to get back online. i don't know exactly when that happened, i was being patient and foolishly expecting that when our area was operational again, i would know it. i have lived here long enough to know better, but yet that is what i believed.
Master was in on the 29th and stayed until the 31st. He let it slip that the reason He is now coming across with military convoys is because He was shot at the the week before. The southern part of the country is still relatively safe from terrorist activity, but there is now the threat of bandits. They don't want the person, particularly, they want the vehicle and/or anything of value they can find inside. The reason Master didn't make it in on the weekend, is that He missed the last convoy on Thursday. He has his security people who convoy Him from whichever warehouse He's in to the American camp. From there He convoys with the military through the DMZ and to the northern border of Kuwait. It is a longer route, but He assures me much safer. i want Him out of the country. We spent the day together on the 30th but it was all about work. Doing this, getting estimates for that, buying the other, answering phone calls that are over and above His job description, but it seems He is the only one who has a handle on the subject. He has not had a REAL day off in over 6 months.
Needless to say, things around the apartment are going to hell in a handbasket. And He is set to leave on Feb 17 for 2 weeks back in the States. i have a list of things that want taking care of; i guess i better prioritize because i know He isn't going to have time to get everything done. Maybe i'll just pack up my stuff and move to a smaller place while He is gone. Leaving no forwarding address. Am i bitter?
Therapy is winding down. Tomorrow is the last of the scheduled 30 days. Yesterday was not good. i had severe pain in the left knee. Enough so that my knee gave out several times as i was walking. i am depressed about this beyond measure. And of course Who isn't around for me to vent to? The only reason i have internet now is because i couldn't sleep last night so at 2 in the morning Mohammed, from Fastelco, and i were on the phone trying to get my PC online. At least he was polite, and funny. But it was 4:30 in the morning before i went back to bed.
i see more of Orlin than i do of Master. And by the time He gets back from Angelo He will have spent more time with His family there than with me here. i don't begrudge Him time with His family. He has a 3 mo/old grandson He has to get to know. And a granddaughter to spoil. But i am jealous a bit. Phooey!
It is a grey day today, and writing about all this nonsense is not helping my mood.
Feb. 2 Water truck incident, ambulances, and police
Feb. 3 Spending a social day with the Therapist
Feb. 4 Newly painted vehicles and rain storms, why some Indian men smell Islamic New Year
Feb. 5 Tylenol PM, ativan, and codeine
i think i have figured out the knee pain. We will not be walking on the beach today.
