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Mar. 24th, 2004 11:42 pmMaster just called, He got through the airport in near record time. He is in the KLM lounge waiting to board the plane. i'm on my own for the next 26 days. Just me and Maxie Pie.
As always i am apprehensive about the coming weeks. i don't like being without Master. As always i am excited about the coming weeks. i enjoy my alone time. Someone asked me if i was lonely by myself. i'm alone, not lonely. There is a difference.
i am apprehensive because i am female and alone for the time being. In my head i know i am safe in this country, simply because i do not do things that are unsafe. In my heart i feel weirded out because of the low status women have. Except 1st class Kuwaiti women. i will be walking with my head down. It's difficult to explain.
On the other hand, im extremely excited as always. i told Master tonight when He gave me the house money for the month that now i can buy the food i want to eat. He looked at me funnily. He doesn't intentionally buy food that i don't like. That isn't it at all. And as a general rule, i like whatever He buys. But there are some things i like more. Or some brands i like better. And for the next month, i will be able to do that.
i will miss Him. But i will survive. And He got everything done on His to do list before He left.
He's going through one last metal detector right about now. And into the waiting to board area. He's got a good seat, an aisle seat like He wanted. i think i'll go take a quick shower and then Max and i will sit out on the patio and watch for Master's plane to fly over. At least He is not on an American carrier. There is a warden's message out today that advises Americans not to fly because of the chance of terrorist activity. And He will be in Amsterdam for over 8 hours. i don't know what that has to do in the grand scheme of terrorist activity, somehow i guess i think that if anything is going to happen, it will happen while He is in Amsterdam, on the ground, not on His plane in the air.
As always i am apprehensive about the coming weeks. i don't like being without Master. As always i am excited about the coming weeks. i enjoy my alone time. Someone asked me if i was lonely by myself. i'm alone, not lonely. There is a difference.
i am apprehensive because i am female and alone for the time being. In my head i know i am safe in this country, simply because i do not do things that are unsafe. In my heart i feel weirded out because of the low status women have. Except 1st class Kuwaiti women. i will be walking with my head down. It's difficult to explain.
On the other hand, im extremely excited as always. i told Master tonight when He gave me the house money for the month that now i can buy the food i want to eat. He looked at me funnily. He doesn't intentionally buy food that i don't like. That isn't it at all. And as a general rule, i like whatever He buys. But there are some things i like more. Or some brands i like better. And for the next month, i will be able to do that.
i will miss Him. But i will survive. And He got everything done on His to do list before He left.
He's going through one last metal detector right about now. And into the waiting to board area. He's got a good seat, an aisle seat like He wanted. i think i'll go take a quick shower and then Max and i will sit out on the patio and watch for Master's plane to fly over. At least He is not on an American carrier. There is a warden's message out today that advises Americans not to fly because of the chance of terrorist activity. And He will be in Amsterdam for over 8 hours. i don't know what that has to do in the grand scheme of terrorist activity, somehow i guess i think that if anything is going to happen, it will happen while He is in Amsterdam, on the ground, not on His plane in the air.
