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We had a set-to today. i was promised some pain and it didn't materialize. He hurt His back yesterday going through some boxes. i knew He was hurting. He woke up this morning and asked me to massage His back to help loosen up the muscles. Then we went shopping. Then He sat at the computer the rest of the day. On the way out to run the dog, He asked what was wrong. i told Him. He thought i should know. i believed that if He was able to go shopping He didn't hurt so much He couldn't give me some pain. i felt resentful that He could talk with hotties on some messaging program but couldn't take the time to do what He promised me He would. This is not the first time He has neglected to give me an idea that plans are changing. i spend time getting myself in a place that i can handle what He dishes out, and then He doesn't. It makes me wonder if He thinks i am not worth the bother. i told Him that. After we got back from the run, He apologized. It will happen again, i know this.