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Sep. 2nd, 2003 07:12 amDaughter got away Sunday night to be with her uncle. He's a nice man, kind hearted, but like the rest of that family just a little 'not quite right'. The man is 42 and just got kicked out of his father's home. Did he move into a place of his own? No, he plans on taking his every-other-weekend daughters to his new location which is a room in the home of some friends. Everyone calls him Baby Huey, from the cartoons. He is big, and dumb, and ugly. i have no idea how he survived 8 years in the army. i guess all it takes is to be trainable. i have no ill feeling for him, he is my children's uncle, from THAT side of the family, and i am happy Daughter and Son can keep in touch. Family ties are important. That family is very disfunctional. Daughter said she told her grandfather goodbye and that she loved him. He said well that's nice, I love you too. Daughter told me that is the first time she can ever remember hearing those words from him. i've known him a whole lot longer and it was a first for me, too.
Spent a nice afternoon and evening with Auntie Nurse and spouse, and cats. We sat out on the deck and watched the ground squirrels play in the yard. The neighbor girl brought her son over and we oooohed and ahhhhed over him. Auntie Nurse cooked on the grill, Ohmaha steaks, portobello mushrooms, and grilled veggies, home grown cukes, onions, and tomatoes. Very nice meal. Mother and i were back home about 9:30, Daughter came home not longer after that.
Today Onent is coming over after work. i am so lucky to have such a friend as her. We go back to the 7th grade, almost 40 years, and have never not been on good terms. She is still married to the same man she started with, and i love them both. Sometimes i envy what they have, both the material and the emotional. i will never actually 'own' a home. i will never have gone through the whole homeowner drill of mortgage, taxes, monthly payments and then finally burning off the note. i may buy a house again at some date, but the odds are i will not live to see it paid off. And they have that history together, children, grand children, etc. Even if i were to marry again, there would be no blood of our blood issuing forth. It is likely my son won't have children of his own, and Daughter can't. My line is nearing its end.
i do not regret anything i have done in my life. But sometimes i wonder what it would have been like had i made different choices. My life has been full, and i've enjoyed aspects in every phase of it.Onent and her husband have roots planted deeply in the soil of their community. i can't say i have. Not a big thing for sure, but i am sure it gives them a sense of groundedness that i will probably not ever enjoy.
Spent a nice afternoon and evening with Auntie Nurse and spouse, and cats. We sat out on the deck and watched the ground squirrels play in the yard. The neighbor girl brought her son over and we oooohed and ahhhhed over him. Auntie Nurse cooked on the grill, Ohmaha steaks, portobello mushrooms, and grilled veggies, home grown cukes, onions, and tomatoes. Very nice meal. Mother and i were back home about 9:30, Daughter came home not longer after that.
Today Onent is coming over after work. i am so lucky to have such a friend as her. We go back to the 7th grade, almost 40 years, and have never not been on good terms. She is still married to the same man she started with, and i love them both. Sometimes i envy what they have, both the material and the emotional. i will never actually 'own' a home. i will never have gone through the whole homeowner drill of mortgage, taxes, monthly payments and then finally burning off the note. i may buy a house again at some date, but the odds are i will not live to see it paid off. And they have that history together, children, grand children, etc. Even if i were to marry again, there would be no blood of our blood issuing forth. It is likely my son won't have children of his own, and Daughter can't. My line is nearing its end.
i do not regret anything i have done in my life. But sometimes i wonder what it would have been like had i made different choices. My life has been full, and i've enjoyed aspects in every phase of it.Onent and her husband have roots planted deeply in the soil of their community. i can't say i have. Not a big thing for sure, but i am sure it gives them a sense of groundedness that i will probably not ever enjoy.
