i looked at my breasts and cried

It was a grand day today. i got some pain, and great sex, thank you Master. i got bound spread eagle on the bed, got marks that are really scarey looking and make me a bit nervous. i hope they are gone before i leave for home. No i don't. Yes i do, no i don't. i've been in that sort of mindset all afternoon.

We took a drive to the scrap yard this afternoon, my second favorite place in Kuwait. Terrible sand storm, great walls of sand blowing across the road. Looked out my window once and saw a sand tornado-like spiral moving over the desert. We had to keep Max in sight on his run today. If he stopped to play with something he'd found, there was danger he might become a dune. We didn't run him so long, the weather was really terrible.

After the trip to Jahra, we went out for dinner. The last time we played Master took me out for dinner at the same restaurant. i asked Him today if this was going to become part of the tradition. He smiled.

He seems to have changed since coming back. Maybe He's finally realized how important pain is to my life. He learned a new fact today. Great sex, lowers the blood pressure. Maybe that will help me get more of what i crave.