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Jan. 10th, 2003 09:06 pmWe went to the north today to the desert on a picnic. The dog had a great time, and so did i. i saw over 500 camels. Ugly animals but amazing. The sun was shining, but it was cool. i had on insulated underwear and sweats. i took along mittens and hat and lined jacket, but didn't need them. We left before it got dark. Max was excellent, he ignored the camels and the sheep and goats. He played around with his frizbee, but wouldn't let us throw it for him. He had more fun scratching at it with his paws trying to turn it over. Got some neato pictures of him to show the family. Now he is sleeping the sleep of the innocent on the floor at my feet.
i baked an excellent pie today. Let me rephrase that. The pie crust is killer. The filling could have been better. i thought i had enough apples to make a fresh apple pie, but didn't so i had to mix canned apples with the fresh. It is good, but would have been better all fresh.
Master is curious about my reaction to yesterdays play time. There was a great deal of humiliation yesterday. Probably more than we have ever done in the past. i have vague remembories of feeling pleased when he bound my feet. i remember thinking 'how neat, i wonder what it looks like?' and how aroused i get when my breasts are bound. He tied me spread eagle on the bed. By that time i was completely wherever it is i go. i don't remember after that, until He made me get up and walk with Him into the living room.
We have just moved. There are no drapes on the windows of either door or the wall of windows that face the sea. i don't know how this figures into what went on, but i do know i was aware of it. He said i cried. He would have enjoyed what it was i did more if it hadn't made me cry. i don't know what it was. i'm afraid to ask.
i am reminded of the ethics discussion on the list. The what if, why would you sort of thing. i can never answer those types of questions. Simply because that is not a part of my world. Perhaps i am more fortunate than some, Master and i are very well matched as regards things moral and ethical. If anything, i am less of each than he. i agree, though, with whoever said she would never just give blanket ok to anything. On the other hand, it is beyond my ability to believe that Master would require anything of me i was not capable of doing. He told me that and that is what i believe. Sort of like that old, god won't ever give you more than you can handle sop. Only in my life it is Master.
Master is updating His resume. There is an opportunity for Him to go to work with Boeing. He isn't sure He will take it, and it won't open up until March, but He is turning in the resume. Can't hurt. Reminds me, i have to find mine.
i baked an excellent pie today. Let me rephrase that. The pie crust is killer. The filling could have been better. i thought i had enough apples to make a fresh apple pie, but didn't so i had to mix canned apples with the fresh. It is good, but would have been better all fresh.
Master is curious about my reaction to yesterdays play time. There was a great deal of humiliation yesterday. Probably more than we have ever done in the past. i have vague remembories of feeling pleased when he bound my feet. i remember thinking 'how neat, i wonder what it looks like?' and how aroused i get when my breasts are bound. He tied me spread eagle on the bed. By that time i was completely wherever it is i go. i don't remember after that, until He made me get up and walk with Him into the living room.
We have just moved. There are no drapes on the windows of either door or the wall of windows that face the sea. i don't know how this figures into what went on, but i do know i was aware of it. He said i cried. He would have enjoyed what it was i did more if it hadn't made me cry. i don't know what it was. i'm afraid to ask.
i am reminded of the ethics discussion on the list. The what if, why would you sort of thing. i can never answer those types of questions. Simply because that is not a part of my world. Perhaps i am more fortunate than some, Master and i are very well matched as regards things moral and ethical. If anything, i am less of each than he. i agree, though, with whoever said she would never just give blanket ok to anything. On the other hand, it is beyond my ability to believe that Master would require anything of me i was not capable of doing. He told me that and that is what i believe. Sort of like that old, god won't ever give you more than you can handle sop. Only in my life it is Master.
Master is updating His resume. There is an opportunity for Him to go to work with Boeing. He isn't sure He will take it, and it won't open up until March, but He is turning in the resume. Can't hurt. Reminds me, i have to find mine.
