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Jan. 3rd, 2003 07:58 pmWe will have an anniversary in less than one month. i suggested to Master that we reassess out situation at that time. He has taken two days of vacation time then and added to the second Eid and the weekend He should have 9 days for 2. Not bad. Back to the reassessment. i don't know for sure if we need to do it. i don't know what it will bring.
i will be spending these next weeks thinking about it and what i want to discuss. It's not that i think there are big problems. i do think we don't speak the same language 90 % of the time. i would like that to happen a bit more often. That we both are on the same page when we talk.
i would like a bit more structure in my life. i'm not good at being proactive. i need to know what He wants me to do. i understand that no news is good news, if i am not doing poorly i shouldn't expect to be rewarded for doing what is my job. i guess i just don't know for sure what my job is.
This is an incoherent ramble. i'm sure it will be worse before it gets better. it's a good thing i thought of this now instead of later. i'd be in a world of hurt, trying to talk to Him about things i haven't worked out in my head.
Daughter got a perm today. Max, the dog who loves to take pills. Master got His project done, nearly done. Probably as done as it is going to get before summer. Tomorrow, on His time, we will do the rearranging. Max pooped on the patio, dumb dog.
The weather is uncommonly cool and windy today. Master even turned the heat on. And all the doors and windows are closed.
One more day of weekend. Gadzooks i wish it would never end. Max got a new collar today, couldn't find a new lead. i need some sex, and some erotic pain. Will i get either?
i will be spending these next weeks thinking about it and what i want to discuss. It's not that i think there are big problems. i do think we don't speak the same language 90 % of the time. i would like that to happen a bit more often. That we both are on the same page when we talk.
i would like a bit more structure in my life. i'm not good at being proactive. i need to know what He wants me to do. i understand that no news is good news, if i am not doing poorly i shouldn't expect to be rewarded for doing what is my job. i guess i just don't know for sure what my job is.
This is an incoherent ramble. i'm sure it will be worse before it gets better. it's a good thing i thought of this now instead of later. i'd be in a world of hurt, trying to talk to Him about things i haven't worked out in my head.
Daughter got a perm today. Max, the dog who loves to take pills. Master got His project done, nearly done. Probably as done as it is going to get before summer. Tomorrow, on His time, we will do the rearranging. Max pooped on the patio, dumb dog.
The weather is uncommonly cool and windy today. Master even turned the heat on. And all the doors and windows are closed.
One more day of weekend. Gadzooks i wish it would never end. Max got a new collar today, couldn't find a new lead. i need some sex, and some erotic pain. Will i get either?
