puppy week 2

I'm being ouchie lately. I think it's because I'll be leaving Master soon. And I'm not looking forward to the scene I believe I'm going to make when I get there. I think I've said it before, but I miss my sister. I can't continue with this right now. It's too close to the surface. But it's not going to be a good summer. I can tell.

I got a letter from my cousin today. He and his wife are in Germany. He asked if they should expect a visit this summer. I would love to go. I've never been to Germany. I just don't know how I can manage it. I promised Master I'd stay here until after July 4. Daughter is expecting me July 9. Maybe I can swing it on the return trip. I can still leave on September 2, spend a couple days with them, then be back here by September 9. Maybe I can swing a visit during winter break. I have to do some serious thinking and quick.

Maybe I'm ouchie because I haven't been swimming for a couple days. Tomorrow I'm going to swim twice. Once in the morning, early and once in the afternoon. I have a backache. I've been really busy today. Made pickles, a red velvet cake, baked beans, got groceries, and played with puppy dog, Max. Maybe I need to do some sit-ups as warm up before swimming. Try to get some strength in my back muscles.

Dog is getting better. We have him pooping on the balcony and peeing in the kitchen drain. Why won't he go outside? Maybe I should put blinders on him. There is just too much sensory stimulation when he's out. All the westerners have to stop and admire him, and all the TCNs run. The cats aren't afraid of him, and he thinks birds are the greatest invention since dog food. Or maybe they are dog food.

My 35th class reunion is this summer. My best friend convinced me that I should go. I sent in my money. She and her spousal unit will be going with. I hate crowds. I am very uncomfortable in large groups. She is sending me threatening letters. We have been friends since the 7th grade. That is amazing I think. Another amazing thing is that we can pick up right where we left off each year. I love her. She is such a good friend.

I'm fortunate. I have two others like that. My sister is one, although I am feeling estranged from her since she's married. I know it's my doing, but I don't adjust to change very well, and now that she has someone is her life, there is not as much room for me. It hurts. I think spiteful things. I know I'm acting like a spoiled kid. I know I'm cutting off my nose to spite my face. I also know I won't do anything to hurt our relationship. She is too precious to me. But I miss her. Damn, I miss her