you know who you are

[jdmklein]

Sometimes i feel so dull. i know someone who is going through a difficult time. And as much as i want to say the right thing to her, i can't find the words to do it. i want to be there for her, and comfort her and hold her hand and make the not good things go away. i want to lay my hands on her and give her energy to face what is in front of her and get through it to the good. i want her to feel the Qi rising and have it make her body feel good. i want her to put her head on my shoulder and let me gently stroke her hair and let her know i care about how she feels right now. i can't know what she is going through, and i don't need to know what is causing her distress, i just want her to know i care. i can't just come out and tell her, because that is not me. It doesn't matter how much i want to, i can't. There is some part of me that is not able to open up like that. i am jealous of people who can.