School's Out For The Summer!
Jun. 11th, 2003 09:31 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleinThat should be the title of a song.
i went for a nice long swim this morning. In the summer, this place is not bad at 5:00 a.m. i swam for an hour with no interruptions of any kind. It was as if i were alone in the world. i came away uplifted in spirit. My day began in a relaxed positive way.
Even the end of semester meeting wasn't as bad as i had expected. Unfortunately people can't tell me to my face the things they think i should hear. Instead great emphasis is put on words that indicate what they see are my shortcomings. Faces are made while i speak or people put their heads down on the table and ignore what i say. And you wonder why i rant and throw hissy fits here.
i suppose it is human nature to question and make suggestions on how to improve something or get something done. And i have to learn to respond to being asked the obvious. They seldom think or suggest something that i have not already thought or tried. They are so egocentric, well who the heck isn't?, they think they have the best plan in the world. Sorry babes, been there, done, that, got the door slammed in my face for the attempt.
With the exception of that particular item on the agenda, the meeting went well. And even that wasn't bad, just annoying as hell. It was scheduled to last 2hrs. and we were done in less than one. It got very quiet at the end. The teaching assignments were handed out. They were not expecting this. And they had no way to complain about it. i'm sure M was wondering just how it would have been different if she hadn't left my office in a huff the other day saying as she walked out the door, i will not teach that class. Ha, the joke is on her. She will be in the office late three days a week now instead of the one i was asking of her. And she is teaching 15 contact hours instead of 10. Too bad.
i know i sound petty and small. Here is the only place i can do it. The sad fact is i have no female friend. i've been down this road before here too. Some days i have to look really hard to find what is good in my life. And then when i do find the good, i am so embarrassed because there is so much. i get bogged down by the little that is unpleasant and refuse to see the enormous good i have.
Master will be back in just about 168 hours. i will be able to focus better on the good in my life then.
Except for the boat.
i went for a nice long swim this morning. In the summer, this place is not bad at 5:00 a.m. i swam for an hour with no interruptions of any kind. It was as if i were alone in the world. i came away uplifted in spirit. My day began in a relaxed positive way.
Even the end of semester meeting wasn't as bad as i had expected. Unfortunately people can't tell me to my face the things they think i should hear. Instead great emphasis is put on words that indicate what they see are my shortcomings. Faces are made while i speak or people put their heads down on the table and ignore what i say. And you wonder why i rant and throw hissy fits here.
i suppose it is human nature to question and make suggestions on how to improve something or get something done. And i have to learn to respond to being asked the obvious. They seldom think or suggest something that i have not already thought or tried. They are so egocentric, well who the heck isn't?, they think they have the best plan in the world. Sorry babes, been there, done, that, got the door slammed in my face for the attempt.
With the exception of that particular item on the agenda, the meeting went well. And even that wasn't bad, just annoying as hell. It was scheduled to last 2hrs. and we were done in less than one. It got very quiet at the end. The teaching assignments were handed out. They were not expecting this. And they had no way to complain about it. i'm sure M was wondering just how it would have been different if she hadn't left my office in a huff the other day saying as she walked out the door, i will not teach that class. Ha, the joke is on her. She will be in the office late three days a week now instead of the one i was asking of her. And she is teaching 15 contact hours instead of 10. Too bad.
i know i sound petty and small. Here is the only place i can do it. The sad fact is i have no female friend. i've been down this road before here too. Some days i have to look really hard to find what is good in my life. And then when i do find the good, i am so embarrassed because there is so much. i get bogged down by the little that is unpleasant and refuse to see the enormous good i have.
Master will be back in just about 168 hours. i will be able to focus better on the good in my life then.
Except for the boat.
