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Apr. 23rd, 2002 08:47 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jdmkleinHad a nice visit with the Vice Dean Academic today. i'm trying to decide just how he views me. i don't know if he thinks i'm someone who needs mentoring in her position, or if he sees me as an equal, well as equal as a muslim man can view a woman, if he is 'lusting after me in his heart', or if he views me as some pet to play with and have a good time.
i took him a draft of the goals and objectives for two of the new courses, gave him an outline of the units of the book, and showed him a first rough draft of the first unit. i asked him to look over the goals and objectives, explaining to him why we didn't follow Bloom's Taxonimy and asked him to be brutal if he felt it was warranted. i want this project to kick ass when it's done. i want the FoM people to drool and turn green with envy, even if the ones in power over there won't ever let our work be used in their courses. i won't tell the teachers my dream, i don't want them to know how small and greedy i am, but it's the truth. In my vision for myself, and the rest of my faculty i see us taking over, in a semi-bloodless coup, the HSC. Of course we would then be big enough to treat the people over there with every ounce of respect that they deserve. Wouldn't take much for some. i am pumped about this project. i am really really pumped.
Vice Dean was pleased. He mentioned taking it to some higher level place in the unversity to show them. He was interested in our decision to look into publishing the work we are doing, even gave me some marketing ideas to make the work more saleable. He called the Dean to ask him to look into a grant for us so we could get some extra pay for all our extra work. i know nothing will come of it as does he, but he also knows i appreciate the gesture.
The conversation then turned a bit uncomfortable. The Faculty Secretary was in the office with us. It seems Vice Dean generally manages to turn the conversation to a topic that could be construed as sexual in nature. i'm pretty sure, bein' as he's muslim, an'all, he doesn't do this with muslim women. i wonder if he thinks it's ok because i'm American. He said something about a man without his woman is in a bad state. And about not letting the elephant get any attention. In all fairness the original topic was the cardinals in the states, but i do get a bit uncomfortable when he goes on like that.
If it were the states, i would probably feel more comfortable about saying something to him about it. On the other hand, when it is business, he is all business and treats me with respect and includes me in the discussion, which would not happen in the Advisory Committee meetings or Executive Board meetings if it weren't for him. i am the only female at these meetings. The others, the majority muslim, would ignore me like the wind, even the Europeans, who have a real attitude problem.
Anyway, i am unsure how i will deal with this. i guess right now i'm not certain just what is going on. If he is this way because i am American and he thinks this is the way all Americans like to talk, i will probably let him know i am uncomfortable. Of course if this is his way of flirting, well, then, hmmm, maybe i'll have to give it some consideration.....dream on, you have Master you twit. If this is his way of being rude to me because i am in a position of some prestiege (yea, right) and he doesn't like women in power, then i will get in his face. On the other hand, his wife is very highly regarded in the FoCM. i just don't know. Sometimes i think he thinks i'm just sort of wandering around in a lucky haze. Well, dude, i got news. i have an agenda, i have a plan, i have goals, and i am not above doing what needs to be done to get where i want to be. If i thought playing the 'poor me' role would keep me on the path i'd do it in a heart beat. i suppose i could even play the 'good ol' boy' game for a bit if needed. i know my education, age, and perhaps even lack of ambition will prevent me from becoming 'queen of the world' but i could become princess of some small country if i play my cards right. Does that sound manipulative? Is manipulation a bad word? On the other hand, a man who has two cats, and lets one sleep under the covers with him can't be all bad.
Tomorrow is Administrative Assistant's Day. After dinner tonight Master and i went out to try to rescue a cat in the sewer and get a small token for my secretary, the Dean's secretary, and the Vice Dean's. He was going to be nice to me and get me an ice cream cone from the new Dairy Queen for desert, but it still isn't open for business. And for dinner tonight we had Gumbo a la Master. Very tastey. Tastey indeed.
This seems a bit incoherent and rambly. Who cares? It's my journal.
Oh, wait! Is that the iron i hear calling?
i took him a draft of the goals and objectives for two of the new courses, gave him an outline of the units of the book, and showed him a first rough draft of the first unit. i asked him to look over the goals and objectives, explaining to him why we didn't follow Bloom's Taxonimy and asked him to be brutal if he felt it was warranted. i want this project to kick ass when it's done. i want the FoM people to drool and turn green with envy, even if the ones in power over there won't ever let our work be used in their courses. i won't tell the teachers my dream, i don't want them to know how small and greedy i am, but it's the truth. In my vision for myself, and the rest of my faculty i see us taking over, in a semi-bloodless coup, the HSC. Of course we would then be big enough to treat the people over there with every ounce of respect that they deserve. Wouldn't take much for some. i am pumped about this project. i am really really pumped.
Vice Dean was pleased. He mentioned taking it to some higher level place in the unversity to show them. He was interested in our decision to look into publishing the work we are doing, even gave me some marketing ideas to make the work more saleable. He called the Dean to ask him to look into a grant for us so we could get some extra pay for all our extra work. i know nothing will come of it as does he, but he also knows i appreciate the gesture.
The conversation then turned a bit uncomfortable. The Faculty Secretary was in the office with us. It seems Vice Dean generally manages to turn the conversation to a topic that could be construed as sexual in nature. i'm pretty sure, bein' as he's muslim, an'all, he doesn't do this with muslim women. i wonder if he thinks it's ok because i'm American. He said something about a man without his woman is in a bad state. And about not letting the elephant get any attention. In all fairness the original topic was the cardinals in the states, but i do get a bit uncomfortable when he goes on like that.
If it were the states, i would probably feel more comfortable about saying something to him about it. On the other hand, when it is business, he is all business and treats me with respect and includes me in the discussion, which would not happen in the Advisory Committee meetings or Executive Board meetings if it weren't for him. i am the only female at these meetings. The others, the majority muslim, would ignore me like the wind, even the Europeans, who have a real attitude problem.
Anyway, i am unsure how i will deal with this. i guess right now i'm not certain just what is going on. If he is this way because i am American and he thinks this is the way all Americans like to talk, i will probably let him know i am uncomfortable. Of course if this is his way of flirting, well, then, hmmm, maybe i'll have to give it some consideration.....dream on, you have Master you twit. If this is his way of being rude to me because i am in a position of some prestiege (yea, right) and he doesn't like women in power, then i will get in his face. On the other hand, his wife is very highly regarded in the FoCM. i just don't know. Sometimes i think he thinks i'm just sort of wandering around in a lucky haze. Well, dude, i got news. i have an agenda, i have a plan, i have goals, and i am not above doing what needs to be done to get where i want to be. If i thought playing the 'poor me' role would keep me on the path i'd do it in a heart beat. i suppose i could even play the 'good ol' boy' game for a bit if needed. i know my education, age, and perhaps even lack of ambition will prevent me from becoming 'queen of the world' but i could become princess of some small country if i play my cards right. Does that sound manipulative? Is manipulation a bad word? On the other hand, a man who has two cats, and lets one sleep under the covers with him can't be all bad.
Tomorrow is Administrative Assistant's Day. After dinner tonight Master and i went out to try to rescue a cat in the sewer and get a small token for my secretary, the Dean's secretary, and the Vice Dean's. He was going to be nice to me and get me an ice cream cone from the new Dairy Queen for desert, but it still isn't open for business. And for dinner tonight we had Gumbo a la Master. Very tastey. Tastey indeed.
This seems a bit incoherent and rambly. Who cares? It's my journal.
Oh, wait! Is that the iron i hear calling?
