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the semseter from hell continues
i had to fire my first person today. i did not like doing it. i feel badly about it, but not for the reasons one might suspect. i feel i was pressured into making the decision without giving her a chance. If she is not able to do the job appropriately she should not be teaching these students. i was working toward getting that information. i got a call from the VDSA. He wanted to know why, if i felt that she was not doing a good job i was keeping her, or at the very least making the students suffer. i explained to him that she, in my opinion, deserved to show her stuff. The students go crying to him and he is too soft to take a stand. He passes the buck.
i was prepared to observe her class, and when i got there yesterday i got blindsided by the students. They wanted to add more to their complaints. i explained i couldn't do a valid observation without all the information. And i left. VDSA called me asking why. i told him. i asked him to send the students who had the complaints to me, and let me deal with it. He agreed.
i met with the students this morning. We had made a plan, the students and i. My mistake was that i asked the VDSA to attend our meeting on Monday. He pressured me into letting her go. i feel like shit. i have no trouble telling someone they can not work for me when they are not able to do the job. i do have a problem with being railroaded into making a decision before i feel i have all the information. It is my unit. They keep telling me that when i check for information. Do what you need to do, they tell me. We will back you to the nth degree, they tell me. Then i am told to do something before it was time. i would have terminated her had i found her incapable. i have no trouble with that. i am a teacher. The student is the thing.
i will have to have a serious talk with the dean about this. i will not be pushed again.
i know why the meeting on Sunday. C, her friend in management's advice wrote a letter about me to the Dean. He delegated the clean up of this mess to the VDAA. He, in his dominant way, decided to have the meeting. i have knowledge of the agenda. He is going to push the issue. He is going to make everyone pissed, and i'm going to have to deal with the fall out. i hate this job. it is not fun anymore. Never was, actually. i am a teacher. i want to teach. That is what i do best. i have gotten awards for my teaching skills. My skills are suffering because of the administrative work i have to do.
i know everyone's fuse is short. Why should mine be expected to be any longer than another's?
There was a warden's meeting tonight. To discuss the recent developments. i can't remember for sure exactly what the charge' d'affaires said. The placement of an article can change the whole tenor of the sentence changes. Did he say, "If they don't want to be here during THE war, they should leave now." Or did he say, "If they don't want to be here during A war, they should leave now." i was sitting at the back of the room. i didn't hear him clearly. Clearly the article is important to that statement.
Some of the airlines have stopped serving the country, i learned at the embassy tonight. There is no guarantee that even if the airport does stay open, there will be any flights out of here. Everyone wants to be the last one on the last plane out. In no uncertain terms the Charge' d' Affaires told the other wardens who asked what they should tell those who are frantic, if they are so frantic why are they still here?
The departure is still authorized. Not ordered. The U.S. government cannot tell its citizens what to do. HA!
i am here for the duration. That is all there is to it.
i am so tired. Had i known about this meeting earlier, like at least during working hours yesterday, i would not have gone it at 7:30 this morning. This has been one hellashious long day. The only good thing about it was that the meeting got over so late that i couldn't make it home in time to talk to Daughter on the computer. So, i called her on my cell phone on the way home.Technology constantly marvels me.
i was prepared to observe her class, and when i got there yesterday i got blindsided by the students. They wanted to add more to their complaints. i explained i couldn't do a valid observation without all the information. And i left. VDSA called me asking why. i told him. i asked him to send the students who had the complaints to me, and let me deal with it. He agreed.
i met with the students this morning. We had made a plan, the students and i. My mistake was that i asked the VDSA to attend our meeting on Monday. He pressured me into letting her go. i feel like shit. i have no trouble telling someone they can not work for me when they are not able to do the job. i do have a problem with being railroaded into making a decision before i feel i have all the information. It is my unit. They keep telling me that when i check for information. Do what you need to do, they tell me. We will back you to the nth degree, they tell me. Then i am told to do something before it was time. i would have terminated her had i found her incapable. i have no trouble with that. i am a teacher. The student is the thing.
i will have to have a serious talk with the dean about this. i will not be pushed again.
i know why the meeting on Sunday. C, her friend in management's advice wrote a letter about me to the Dean. He delegated the clean up of this mess to the VDAA. He, in his dominant way, decided to have the meeting. i have knowledge of the agenda. He is going to push the issue. He is going to make everyone pissed, and i'm going to have to deal with the fall out. i hate this job. it is not fun anymore. Never was, actually. i am a teacher. i want to teach. That is what i do best. i have gotten awards for my teaching skills. My skills are suffering because of the administrative work i have to do.
i know everyone's fuse is short. Why should mine be expected to be any longer than another's?
There was a warden's meeting tonight. To discuss the recent developments. i can't remember for sure exactly what the charge' d'affaires said. The placement of an article can change the whole tenor of the sentence changes. Did he say, "If they don't want to be here during THE war, they should leave now." Or did he say, "If they don't want to be here during A war, they should leave now." i was sitting at the back of the room. i didn't hear him clearly. Clearly the article is important to that statement.
Some of the airlines have stopped serving the country, i learned at the embassy tonight. There is no guarantee that even if the airport does stay open, there will be any flights out of here. Everyone wants to be the last one on the last plane out. In no uncertain terms the Charge' d' Affaires told the other wardens who asked what they should tell those who are frantic, if they are so frantic why are they still here?
The departure is still authorized. Not ordered. The U.S. government cannot tell its citizens what to do. HA!
i am here for the duration. That is all there is to it.
i am so tired. Had i known about this meeting earlier, like at least during working hours yesterday, i would not have gone it at 7:30 this morning. This has been one hellashious long day. The only good thing about it was that the meeting got over so late that i couldn't make it home in time to talk to Daughter on the computer. So, i called her on my cell phone on the way home.Technology constantly marvels me.